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Look back, but only to see how far you've come

To be honest, this is the first time I've ever thought to look back over a decade. I mean I've looked back over the last ten years of my life, but there is something special about ending a decade and beginning a new one - and being aware of it. Maybe it never really dawned on me because I didn't used to care about a whole lot, or maybe it's because from your 20s to your 30s you actually become an adult. Its exciting to think about the next decade and how much more I will learn, grow and evolve.

Looking back to 2010, I was 24 years old and thought I had my life together. I was "confident" and in complete denial that I was living my life in toxic chaos. Of course I had lots of highs, but I had some very dark lows. I lived in a adorable "village" with my best friend (we're talking childhood friend, a sister from another mister). I was also in complete puppy love with a drug addict and fell hard into the depths of my co-dependant relationship with …


Facing the Blocks

I knew it had been some time since I wrote my last blog post, but I was shocked to see that it had been over a month. I'm not going to lie, from being someone who wrote on occasion and thought that writing a blog wouldn't be too much of a challenge for me I was mistaken for sure. Obviously it would be nice to make some money off of it, but I really wanted to create a community. I want to use it as a tool in my classroom. I want it to be one big space for those who are like minded people and families. I kind of jumped in had first into the blogging pool not knowing how to swim. But I'm kind of ok with that. It has taken me a minute, but I have let go of the control and judgment. The pressure I was putting on myself to create the best content I could think of that was the "image" that I thought we needed to create became annoying and stressful. It added to the creative block that is already inside me and our poor baby web page just sat here all alone.

As I have mentioned in past blogs I have written, I have been chipping away at this fabulous work book call the Artist's Way written by the intelligent Julia Cameron. I'm almost to the end and I have realized how blocked I really am as an artist. No wonder I haven't been making anything let alone written anything. We are all creative people, so I really think that everyone should pick this book up. Make sure you give yourself 12 weeks to commit to this book. It's intense, but worth it. I'm excited to be where I am. To step forward and let go of all the bull crap that has kept me just sitting. I no longer want to watch opportunities slip by because of fear. I'm tired of wanting my desires, but taking no action to achieve them. I know in my heart that I can have each and everyone of my heart's desires, my dreams. But I have been held back for too long by fear...mostly. Fear of success, fear of failure, fear of judgment, fear of missing out.

Maybe part of this is that the summer months take a lot out of me. I have been called so many times to show up for this. To  show up and use this type of expression (among many others) ESPECIALLY this summer. I have realized that summer time is my healing time. So much comes up for me to work through and heal and a lot of time it's pretty intense and it takes a lot out of me. I am happy to say that each summer I become more balanced and listen to my needs way more that I used to. The transition seasons are really my time to put the wheels in motion. Where my motivation takes the for front. The bottom line is I need to just show up. As is. Who I am, what I think, what I want to share and that's it. If people read it great. If we make money awesome. What's most important to me is that we are out in the world as our authentic selves. Be the change, be what want to see in the world, educate through love. So cheers to not giving up and showing up. We are human. Not picture perfect entities that fit into this world wide web, but the high vibration of love that uses this tool to raise the vibration of others.

The best way to deal with blocks in our life is to face them. If it's challenging, embrace that. Working through the uncomfortable things is where the magic happens. It's where we truly grow. Honor your feelings and let them flow. Trust in your higher source and let go of all the things that you think you should be. Be gentle to yourself. Write every day to release thoughts, fears, frustrations and struggles.  Do one little thing that makes you happy. Do a meditation. Take a deep breath. Set one goal, and start action to achieve it. Dance (or sing) to your favorite song. Tell yourself, "I love you". If you start doing this bit by bit, it will add up. Before you realize there will be a huge shift in your life and your creativity will flourish. How do you break through creative blocks? Are there any books you have read that have helped you? Share in the comments below, we would love all the tools. In my opinion you can never have to many tools that help you heal and make you a better person.


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